Why I "didn't" choose psychology as a major

Psychology is the study of the human mind and its functions, which is very thrilling.

Growing up I was so fascinated by the human mind and brain to the point of considering being either a neurosurgeon or a psychologist, but of course none of them ended up being reality for different reasons.

For neurosurgery its simple, once I even think about blood or open wounds my whole body starts shaking, so that was a no for me. I’m also very bad at retaining informations that need to be fully memorised and that is the whole system of medical school.

I always wanted to help people with mental health, because it really is not addressed as much as it should be. I personally think of mental illnesses as a black hole that keep feeding you until they fully consume you, which then leads people to commit suicide. A psychologist is like that space ship that pulls you away from the black holes horizon leading you back to a solid ground . The only reason I don’t think I could do it is that I’m a really sensitive person that can not in any way control her tears. As a psychologist you do need sympathy but you also need to control it, and not get so immersed into the pain of your clients or else you will end up needing a psychologist yourself.

I know psychologists do in fact go to therapy sometimes because trying to heal people can be too much, so that made me even surer that I can’t be one. I feel people’s pain so deeply that I wouldn’t be able to treat more than one patient a year.

The human mind is not a terribly logical or consistent place.